Letter From Silent Heaven

by Sick Le Lapin

supported by

	/

Streaming + Download

Includes high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more. Paying supporters also get unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app.

Purchasable with gift card

name your price

lyrics

In my restless dreams,
I see that town.

Silent Hill.

You promised me you'd take me there again someday.
But you never did.

Well, I'm alone there now...
In our "special place"...
Waiting for you...

Waiting for you to come to see me.

But you never do.

And so I wait, wrapped in my cocoon of pain and loneliness.

I know I've done a terriblething to you.
Something you'll never forgive me for.

I wish I could change that,
But I can't.

I feel so pathetic and ugly laying here, waiting for you...

Every day I stare up at the cracks in the ceiling and all I can think about is how unfair it all is...

The doctor came today.
He told me I could go home for a short stay.

It’s not that I'm getting better.
It’s just that this may be my last chance...

I think you know what I mean...

Even so, I'm glad to be coming home.
I've missed you terribly.

But... I'm afraid, James.
I'm afraid you don't really want me to come home.

Whenever you come see me,
I can tell how hard it is on you...

I don't know if you hate me or pity me...
Or maybe I just disgust you...

I'm sorry about that.

When I first learned that I was going to die...
I just didn't want to accept it.

I was so angry all the time...

And I struck out at everyone I loved most.
Especially you, James.

That's why I understand if you do hate me.

But I want you to know this, James.

I'll always love you.

Even though our life together had to end like this, I still wouldn't trade it for the world.
We had some wonderful years together.

Well, this letter has gone on too long, so I'll say goodbye.

I told the nurse to give this to you after I'm gone.

That means that as you read this, I'm already dead.

I can't tell you to remember me, but I can't bear for you to
forget me.

These last few years since I became ill...
I'm so sorry for what I did to you, did to us...

You've given me so much and I haven't been able to return
a single thing.

That's why I want you to live for yourself now.
Do what's best for you, James.

James...

You made me happy.

credits

released June 30, 2020

license

about

Sick Le Lapin France

Un lapin █████ qui compose du bruit/son/musique sur ses machines.

contact / help

Contact Sick Le Lapin

Streaming and
Download help

Report this track or account

If you like Sick Le Lapin, you may also like:

Winds of Change
by Jon Keliehor, Signy Jakobsdottir

featured on Bandcamp Radio Mar 5, 2024
go to album
Imerro
by C. Diab

Canadian producer and multi-instrumentalist galvanizes bowed guitars, cellos, and synths into an off-kilter exploration of heat and desire. Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 25, 2024
go to album
Request Stop
by Various Artists

Brachliegen Tapes's electronic compilation finds magic in the simple act of riding the bus. Bandcamp Album of the Day Feb 12, 2024
go to album
SUPRA
by Dijf Sanders

Belgian beatmaker honors his Georgian roots through the incorporation of local choirs and field recordings collected during his travels. Bandcamp New & Notable Nov 29, 2023
go to album
Nacre
by Quade

Music that’s woozy and mysterious, like a warped 7-inch, played a speed too slow Bandcamp Album of the Day Nov 14, 2023
go to album
Age of Execution
by Brian Wenner

Brian Wenner unleashes another batch of sizzling experimental electronic music, alternately dissonant and tuneful. Bandcamp New & Notable Nov 14, 2023
go to album
The Symmetry of Telemetry
by Rick Reed

Expansive soundscapes make up the latest from Rick Reed, full of lush, haunting atmospherics. Bandcamp New & Notable Oct 14, 2023
go to album